How did I get here?

I’ll be a wife for 5 years in October and my daughter will be 3 on Friday. I own a home and I’m a housewife. I seem to have it all and I do, but then why do I feel so unfulfilled sometimes? Sometimes I wonder even if I deserve this semi normal life. It wasn’t always this normal for me. Most of my life was pretty dysfunctional and chaotic. Within the last several months I’ve learned a lot of new things about this world and this country. A lot of it hasn’t been good things. Its been hard to digest all the new things that have come into my existence. Life seems to be a continuous journey of learning and self awareness. Maybe the best way to start all of this is to go to the beginning, like 36 years ago……